Awareness of anger
an excerpt from Live Beautifully: A Book to Sit With, by Doris Wedige
Reflections on returning to Stillness...
I experienced the most enjoyable afternoon; so full of Awareness and Creativity. It was like I had arrived at a splendid state of Consciousness. Or so I thought I had arrived to stay for an eternity. But much to my surprise a few short hours later I would find myself in a difficult situation that twisted my emotions around and around so tight that returning to stillness required a realignment of major magnitude.
I was like a pit bull with a vengeance. My mind didn’t want to let go of the unjustness of the entire situation. It was held tightly in my jaws and I was drooling and shaking my head from side to side. I recognized my insanity. But what do you do to return to that blissful state of being?
Breathe, breathe, breathe, slower, breathe deeper, find stillness within, listen, let it go, shake it off, choose, let the negativity of this moment become a part of my energy or let it go, let it end, make a choice, carry the load or put it down. Put it down, don’t fuel it, and let it return to nothingness. It expanded, it grew, I fueled it, now I will let it go, pay it no bother, without my attention, my energy, it will fade away. It will contract until it is no more.
In its place Consciousness will expand. The Stillness will expand. I can return Home once again.
I intend to focus my attention willfully.