DIVINE DISCONTENT AND DISEASE
the invitation to the journey of transformation
REFLECTING ON THE PAST
EXCERPTS FROM MY PERSONAL JOURNALING
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Dear Diary:
I’m not writing this to be a complainer, but more as a record so hopefully things will change and I can then see that when the chips are down that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I also want to see if there is a pattern related to the weather. I am speaking of the pains in my hands, particularly my left hand. They are sore and stiff. I’ve been finding it more difficult to maneuver my left hand. I’m scared. I’m feeling rather introverted today. Sometimes I get that way. How can I be so outgoing one day, and not the next? My neck hurts, my back hurts, my left hip hurts, my hands hurt, my feet hurt. Big bummer. I’m so scared. |
MY PERSPECTIVE TODAY
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In my 20’s I was a youthful energetic woman that was curious and excited for all that life had to offer. Each new beginning was an exciting adventure. But my life was a roller coaster of emotional and physical highs and lows. I suffered physically with PMS, the complications of scoliosis and with rheumatoid arthritis.
In my mid-30’s I began to get concerned about my physical health. I started seeking help from medical professionals other than my conventional doctors. I went to a chiropractor for frequent adjustments. I wore orthotics in my shoes. I suffered from back pain, foot and leg pain, sore joints, and severe PMS. I ground my teeth at night and I suffered from TMJ pain. I went to physical therapy. At this point I separated ‘my life’ from my physical health. I saw myself as suffering from an illness that was happening ‘to me. I wandered aimlessly seeking a fix to my problems from outside myself. I realize now that I was ignorant in not understanding the Guidance that the pain and suffering were offering. As I didn’t heed the messages of my physical suffering screaming at me that I was going the wrong way, I became increasingly ill. I carried a load of painful emotions and my mind was a whirlwind of thoughts that were a reflection of these low energies. My spirit became ill. I call this illness of spirit, Divine Discontent. At this stage I had no choice but to go within. Life really turned up the heat so to speak. |
I had gone from mental disEase,
to a spirit of disEase,
to physical disEase.
to a spirit of disEase,
to physical disEase.
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Reflecting back I see all of the painful emotions that I was experiencing. My birth family suffered from alcoholism. The situations seemed completely out of my control and I felt very justified in responding to the lower realm situations with lower realm thinking and emotions. I worried constantly. I had a sense that there was a ticking time bomb in my midst and I lived in a constant state of fear that it might go off at any moment. Even though I physically was living in a safe environment, mentally and emotionally I was living in a warzone of terror.
I see now that the physical ailments resulted from the build up of low energies from my fearful choices of thoughts and emotions. I was plagued with an accumulation of emotional energies that became dark energetic blockages that were dragging me down energetically and interferring with my bodies' natural functions. My lifeline to restored health and vitality came from my commitment to Live Beautifully: a daily devotion of looking within and taking self-responsibility for aligning myself with the Upper Realm in mind, body and spirit. I wish to share my tools with you in hopes that they will be helpful in your own self-healing. Doris |
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READINGS RELATED TO DIVINE DISCONTENT/DISEASE
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Reflections on strength... p. 26
Reflections on navigating... p. 32 Reflections on 'Who's in charge here anyway?'... p. 56 Reflections on a prescription for health... p. 73 |
Options for expanding awareness of the Upper/lower Realms
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