Awareness of lack

an excerpt from Live Beautifully:  A Book to Sit With, by Doris Wedige
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Reflections on being pruned for growth...
I’ve gone through a remarkable growth spurt in the past week.  Last week I was Chicken Little and this week I feel like Foghorn Leghorn.  Last week I was shaking in my boots.   Nix that, Chicken Little didn’t wear boots.  Try again.  Last week my feathers were all ruffled over our families’ finances.  Everywhere I turned there were headlines of doom and gloom.  The whole world was going broke.  I was frantic. I ran around yelling, “The sky is falling! The sky is falling!”
Well, it’s a week later and so far the sky is still suspended in its normal locale.  As I sit on my porch and write this, the sun still rises in all its glory through a canopy of oak trees.  And thankfully I have lost my Chicken Little mentality.
So what happened?  Reality really hasn’t changed too much in a week’s time. But my thinking has changed.  I accepted that this is the reality of today.  And I accepted that it would likely be the reality for some time to come. 
I could get caught up in feeling like a victim who needs to go to work to pay taxes for expenditures that I don’t believe in or I can accept the reality of the day and get on with it.  I choose the later. I choose to Live Beautifully.  I choose Healing.  I choose to live with Love, not fear.
I choose today to do my work well.  I choose to prepare the meals for my family with love and attention to their nutritional needs.  I choose to tend to my garden.  I choose to gaze at this glorious sunrise.  I choose to let the rays of the sun envelop me.  I choose to express gratitude for all that is.
We are being pruned right now.  Cut back. It hurts. I feel bare and exposed.  Instead of developing new growth, I feel like it’s time for developing a stronger root system.  We can each choose to whither and slowly die back or we can choose to refocus our efforts on becoming stronger and healthier than ever before.  I choose to focus on inner growth.  I will send my roots deep and strong.  This growth won’t be perceptible in the near future, but in the long run I will grow tall and beautiful. 


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I intend to accept being pruned for growth.    

Journaling for Transformation - lack