Awareness of tension
an excerpt from Live Beautifully: A Book to Sit With, by Doris Wedige
Reflections on cleaning up your hard drive...
Last week I had just plain old “had it.” I went for a hike and contemplated letting go of past memories and habitual patterns of behavior. The tension in my back and neck had become acute pain and I could no longer ignore it. I had to let it go.
As I walked I imagined all of my memories and behavioral patterns to be stored within the “hard drive” of my body. My body felt like a computer that had become bogged down from a lack of maintenance. I needed to delete old useless files and defrag the hard drive. Any memories that I no longer wished to hold on to were transferred to imaginary CDs. I began to eject the CDs from a slot between my shoulder blades. I walked faster and faster as the negative memories fell on the trail behind me. CDs containing the patterns of my unhealthy habits were also ejected from my back.
It was so freeing to let go of it all; to leave it there on the trail. Faster and faster I walked as I lightened my load of all the junk that no longer served me.